i just finished watching SCP with Nino and Sho as guests this year, i'm so touched by them..

first off, my impression of Nino:
as always, he's always the brat-acting character i guess, but then after watching it i think he's very mature also!
and he thinks ahead.
i think that's what a lot of people lack, especially me.
hmm~ and, ahhh i loveeeeeee his laughter! :)
moving on, when he talked about wanting to learn directing in America, that kinda shocked me a little.
i always thought he'd be the guy who would love to be in front of the camera, not backstage.
but then, his passion for acting and unfortunately although he didn't learn directing.. it all sets me off.
i mean, not in the wrong wayyy.
i guess sometimes we have to step back and think where we're all heading.
...
in the middle of the video it suddenly stopped. just when nino was about to show a card trick. ughhhhh, guess i'll have to see what's the problem the next time (O_O)
(it's 1.49AM now><)

and then i watched Sho's.
Taichi was very impressed with Sho and why am I not surprised that I am too?
well well well, Sho's just great :D
he introduced rap music, putting studies before his career and being a newscaster
awww, that just gives more reason for me to love him even more >///<
i was really touched.
he was determined to make it out of college, even to the extent of refusing a drama offer for a class trip
if i was him i wouldn't know what to do
and
listening to what he says, i think i have to work harder in everything too, not only studies
his world when he was in his early 20+ revolves studying, work, studying,work, and yeah you get what i mean
and he STILL has time to make it for studying even after filiming the whole afternoon to night!
i wonder where he gets all that energy
i guess, what people are passionate about what they want to do, they will try their upmost to fufill it.
also, i realised that Sho talks really polite, haha.

after watching both videos, i feel so so touched
(i have a poor vocabulary, sorry)
it gives me all the more reason to study harder and work towards my goal now
a while ago, i was staring at the dark dark ceiling, thinking why the hell i had to go through all this
hell, i even thought of ending my life
but, i was too chicken, what can you expect from me
but then
thinking through
and watching all these talk shows and vids
the chains binding my emotions started to loosen
i started to think positively again
especially after watching these 2 particular episodes..
life doesn't always go the way you want; somtimes your tires will be flat; sometimes you'll get bad weather; sometimes the engine just doesn't want to budge
but then, these things will eventually go away
if you start thinking and looking for what's wrong, then you try to fix it
it may not be successful at the first time
but then, nobody said that you'll get it the first time right?
so there, as long as we persevere and is determined, of course at the same time evaluate our mistakes and try not to make them again,
somehow, eventually, i think we'll all be a better person then we were. :)

woo~
i actually said some good things for thought
haha
i don't know if i'm crapping though, these are just what i wanna say
(surprsingly, it's 2.00AM and i'm still not sleepy ._.)

hmmm~
i hope if someone ever feels down recently and just can't find a reason to restart again,
i hope reading this post will cheer you up ne~

once in a while i say some nice things don't i :D