relief gushes me as i leave the science laboratory.
my hands still trembling, i tried to shake myself, telling me that it's already over, there's nothing i could do..

OH YES I'VE FINISHED MY CHEMISTRY SPA 2~  *does Yatta sign*

(okay maybe my starting of this post was too dramatic. maybe i should aspire to be an author instead of being a lawyer ahahaha)


hmmmm,i don't know why but i was damn nervous.
the night before, the jitters began.
everything i tried to pick up, i wouldn't manage to do it without at least dropping it once. (ughhhhh what's wrong with me)

this morning it started again; weird. i didn't get so nervous the first round.. (because you were complacent, idiot)
the kiasus reached school early reached school early to do some prior revising, then headed in the lab at about 10 minutes before 10am.
and my hands started trembling again, my stomach doing little flips all the while.

why the hell i was that nervous, i still don't know._.

10am.
started what i had to do, and then raised my hand to ask the teacher to check on my pipetting and how i do the drop-wise thingy at end point.
and my hands were still trembling.
i'm lucky today that i didn't have a lot of air bubbles..
but i was so nervous i didn't really check very thoroughly.
trying to calm myself down, i breathed in and out rhythmically, steadying my breathing.
and then it was the enddddddd

while in the holding room we discussed and they told me that many people had readings around 26.7.. and mine was 26.9. three times straight.
(sigh) well, what can i do, it's all over, it's not like i can revert back time and tell my hands to stop shaking right.
oh well.



i guess i'm quite optimistic  aren't i
no point brooding over something that has already happened._.


hmmmmmm, and like usual we went to eat something special again- we have to eat to like 'reward' ourselves but it's urm eating too much holes into my wallet
so we went to Pepper Lunch, i shared the combo meal with yiwen :)
i guess it's okay, my first time going there to eat.
hahaha i enjoy chatting with them~
saying nonsesical stuff at times and teasing each other ahhh~~

it's hard to believe, but soon we're gonna leave each other.. i mean we still can meet up and all, but in a few years we'll all pursuing different things
life's like that, huh. *shrugs*
i'll just enjoy life as it goes (seeeee, optimist me again XD)






i'm gonna have a drama-thon today, i feel so bad for neglecting Tokujo Kabachi and Yamanade for so long.
and i'm downloading Kaibutsu-kun now, thanks stormy_team for the fast subs!
and i've got to watch those videos i've downloaded long long time ago, say for instance Moji Moji kun and Ultra Strong Game and Mago Mago Arashi..
new videos keep coming up, so many but i haven't got any time to watch them.
(sigh) will catch up after O's, i guess
i've seen Arashi ni Shiyagare's CM, i don't really get it but i think their outfits make them look like Prince(what's the plural for "Prince"?) Charming(s?)

OH AND MY "I'M A JOHNNY'S FAN!" WRISTBAND IS FINALLY HERE~ *whoops in joy*
i don't know if i can post the picture here so i won't first till i get mine..
received the email from maoling , i don't know when i have the time to meet up to collect.. maybe i'll just have to use postage instead._.


i've gotta go on hiatus soon. Start of Prelims in less than..2 weeks i suppose?


okayyyy, before i rant anymore (i'm sure everyone's bored of me going on and on already) i'm gonna end this post~~

aibabaye