got back all results today except for HCL.

the thing i'm proudest of is i passed all my humans subjects with As/Bs
and at least my E. Maths got a B3/4
don't know english and HCL score yets,haven't tabulated english scores and didn't get back HCL scripts.

the only thing i was disappointed in was i failed all my sciences and A.Maths.
first time in my life i got 1 D7 and 2 E8s.
real embarrassing.

maybe the truth didn't sink in yet, so it was only after i took my Chemistry paper did reality really sink in.
i failed.
and suddenly just rushed to the toilet and broke down.
sorry and thank you to the people who comforted me, even tried to make me smile.
i've thought it through, and i'm okay now, just if anyone's worrying

maybe it's because of the fact that i worked hard for all 3 papers but i didn't get what i thought i would.
my thinking was: "aiyah since everytime i also fail the papers but eventually i would pass one~"
because i thought that way, i began to think i would pass
which i didn't.

i know i worked hard, but not hard enough
it's useless to cry; it's useless to ponder and dwell about it anymore.
a remix from a quote from Mr Goh (this is what i came up with :p):
Life's a bitch but it still goes on.

i've thought it through, i won't cry anymore.
it's no use.
and suddenly what Mr Koh told us today really made me think, though at first when he said that i thought it was lame. but it is quite true,actually.
he said: "if you're weak, we can help you. but if you're lazy, there's nothing we can do."

that struck me first when i realised it's useless to keep wallowing in self-pity.

because in the end this is my future, this is my life. (wait does this sound like some song lyrics? )
only i can change it; and i can't do it if i keep thinking "it's useless, i can't do it..."
that's crap.

if i just change another perspective to look at things,
this is a lesson for me to learn from, this is another setback in life i have to overcome.
and i will.


Life's a bitch but it still goes on.

it's scary but i've gotta do it.



P.S.: was it too heavy? hahaha sorraye :x but i do hope it did help those people who didn't do well and encourage them to move on.. because if we move on we'll see that there are more paths we can use to help us succeed.

maybe sometimes, people just have to face the facts.
maybe sometimes, we just have to go through all the tough things in the world.
maybe sometimes, we all want to just cry.
maybe sometimes, i just want to jump out of the window.

naaaah, but i won't, even though i have a strong desire to._.

this whole week finally ended, i was super relieved.
yes, i tried my best.
yes, i have my regrets.
but now..
i think i'm alright already.

at least, i hope so.

the tears that have been shed..would be repaid someday.
as they always say, hard work pays off.

but, i think the more important thing is to learn from our own mistakes yeah.
and don't repeat the same dumb mistake ever again.

maybe i'm just too anxious when doing my papers.

i didn't do well for amaths and chem, even though i studied hard for them.
yes, i failed. 24/50 for chem; 23/50 for amaths.
ahhh, sometimes i think life is nothing but just papers and applications to fill.
....
maybe i didn't work hard enough.

i was wrong to say i tried my best? maybe..

but now i know.

i have to try EVEN harder.
reach even higher.
and eventually,
i would be able to soar :)

so those people who didn't do as well, cheer up yeahs :]
there's always the next time.
as long as you don't give up,
there's still hope.

and then,
comes joy.