am in a rant-y mode today.
tried to find sports shoes for PE, but in the end because of my cheapo side i couldn't get any. LOL, as expected lah.
talked loads today, haha, it still feels familiar.
but everything's changing.
got to school on thursday, had loads of mixed feelings.
suddenly i felt that maybe i had made the wrong choice. though the doubt was short-lived.
it's scary having to meet new people from totally different backgrounds and qualities.
i know i know, we're all different.
i just feel so lost not talking to someone i'm not familiar with, someone i have to make new connections with, someone who may or may not eventually be my new friend and stuff like that.
it feels like the start of kindergarten or primary one or secondary one all over again. deja vu?
i seriously don't know.

i totally agree with what the school counselor said.
he said that in JC life will be totally different from secondary school, you will be in a new environment, make new friends, etc etc etc.
and he mentioned that these friendships will not be as deep as those in secondary school, because you won't have time. and the most time you'll spend, is with your CCA friends. that i totally agree, especially because this year is SYF year.
omg, like freaking overwhelming!!
it just feels weird to be talking to everyone about the same thing, what stream did you choose, is AJC your first choice, what subject combination did you choose, which CCA do you plan to take, blah blah blah the likes.
yeah i do know, that this is what you must do in order to connect with people and develop friendships.
sigh.
actually i don't know what this post is about, LOL, just in my rant-y mode, except now i'm not spamming twitter HAHAHA

already on the first day of school, i had to stay back for choir.
omg, SATB choir is like really, really,
really different from SSA!
i'm so overwhelmed, especially since i've been in a SSA choir for 8 years

i know i must get used to it, and i have to do it quick.
because if i blow my chance of getting into SYF this year, i won't have the chance once again

oh man, i really hope i can catch up fast and try to get into SYF this year!

bought my college uniform and PE, seriously i really really dread PE ugh. 1 hour of PE in one period, one week will have two PE sessions, as told by my senior.
WTFFFFFFFFFF I HATE PE

and looking back idk why i even said that i liked jogging before

orientation is gonna begin next next monday, omg, OG= my actual class! *gulps*

as if trying to talk to the people beside me is not nerve-wrenching enough.
and games omg, i suck at games please i hope there isn't many games omg wtf
yeah seriously?
this is my true colours LOL
i don't like games, i don't like sports, i only like to read and watch arashi videos yes i'm a real nerd and bookworm HAHAHA
the only "active" thing in my nerve may be the fact that i love singing and i love shopping. hmmmmmm

okay i'm so random

i really hope that my class has more 'good' people than uh, you know...

it's hard to connect with new people, especially since i'm not very "social" in the first place. i like to be the observer, not the one who's at the center. if you get what i mean. and now you're wondering why i joined choir, right? LOL
okayyyy, i have to admit the seniors are really all very friendly and nice hahaha i just have to get used to the fact that when i look in front of me (because we stand like in a semicircle), i see guys and not girls :)
and
wennqq has been so sweet and nice to me, hahaha thank you so much~!!
i'm still trying to adapt to everything new around me, and hopefully i'll be able to change some aspects of myself, be able to survive and learn independently i guess. because there is no choice right?
i only hope for the best.
P.S. sorry for my lengthy RL rants again, haha. i can be in fangirl mode and flail over Chibi! TomaPi and basically chibi jyanizu(~1998), but the cold weather's making me feel thoughtful and i just wanted to rant
